is this a problem of mine?

"First love, maybe never dies, but never exist"

It seems to me quite often write about this guy.
whether, if this is really my first love?
he was my senior at junior hi

i feel him

a half brother, a half (sometimes) more than that.

i dont know, but everytime i wondering mine, i just feel like ' i dont deserve it'

its okay.

but... its going not okay anymore when he calling me back .

He said "i just want to text you"

Do you ever feel like you can't help yourself?