re-think. re-arrange life.

Here I am at the top of my laziness (and still writing?). Well this is monday and I left office just for today's plan: seeing my doctor but unexpectedly I skip today's lecture too.  Yah.. I'm free for today -not really because I did some works from home- but you know, work from home always be my pleasure.. by home I mean everywhere I desired.

Been thinking about myself and today.
I slept well...ate well..watched dramas..lied on sofa like zombie.  Sometimes it is stressfull to be a collegian and an employee of a company at the same time.  Especially in my twenty, I got less me-time.  It is hard to control yourself from a strong will to run away sometimes.  Like, what I do now.

I'm happy with my life.  I really am.  Good friends, good colleague, good... everything was good so far.  It is just sometimes I re-think again.  About my life.  Why am I here? Is this right what I want? Did it good? I re-think again.

Some of the time I end with some options in mind.  I think about letting go what I have now, and continue learning languages and start a new day with it.  Or... I'll move and spend my whole life in Korea being a wife of a chaebol and owned a nasi goreng and mie ayam store there.

I got crazy imagination.  I always re-think.
But in the end I'll back to the track and re-think again....some time to come.

Pakwo

Apa kabar?
Makanan kesukaanmu, hari ini, membuatku ingat berapa banyak Ramadhan yang kami lewati tanpamu.
Tentu juga, berapa banyak Idul Fitri yang kami lewati tanpamu.

Aku ingat, betapa paket lengkap dua keluarga selalu bersama menjelajah indahnya surga kita.  Hari-hari libur itu, dan sebuah Kijang sederhana milikmu yang menjadi harapan kita semua.  Rencana demi rencana yang seakan tidak ada habisnya.

Sekarang Kau temukan surgamu, kan? Kami kini cukup terbiasa membiarkan hari-hari libur itu berlalu apa adanya.  Meskipun seperti hari ini, aku sedikit melembabkan mataku karna ingat kau.  Aku rasa..adik melembabkan matanya lebih sering daripada aku.  Mencari kau.

Semoga kau tenang disana dan semoga suratku di kolong langit malam tadi sampai.



Salam rindu,

Keponakanmu.